• sometimes i wish i lived in darkness where no can see me and there's silence.where no one can bother me but at the same time darkness is scary.Darkness is somewhere that has my secrets bundle up in in a ball and if your there its unleashed.so in darkness there is pain and i see that now and i dont know when i'll wake up.I can hear what they say and i found out that im only loved by my family and close friends. The rest are lairs wearing a mask.The doctors say that I have a mild case and that i'll probably wake up in a month.I felt paralyzed when I try to move, when I wanted to hug my mother and comfort her. She says she'll pray for me and visits me two times a day.She sometimes sing a soft lullaby in Spanish, I never learn how to speak it but i Understand it. The song was about a chicken that was out on a hot day and end up to get cooked at the end. The other one was about a pretty Princess that was was kind to everyone. She alway name the princess after me, After she sang the song she would tell me "Olivia please wake up, we miss you." Then She would take my hand and said " your father needs you the most, he's going crazy"
    She would get up and tell me that she loves me, sometime- on other days- she talk to me like i'm still awake.when my best friend -Reshma- visits me she's like " i feel like im talking to a ... um whats its called ... a corpse!" and when i finch my hand she says " Its alive!" and I would silently be laughing sometimes.Other times I just want to smack her head and be like shut up! but sense i can hardly move, I just flinch my hand.sometime she tells me what day it is and what we have for homework, Sometimes complain about how she hardly understands it.Sometimes the whole group comes which is Christine,Reshma, Jessa, Tatiana, Vanessa and Rachael. It like a party in my room, they even got kicked out once. Which was because they got down on there legs and were screaming "trolls are people too!"
    which the doctors thought would offend some of the patients, even though I could hear them laughing in the staff room. Some of the nurses even ask if they were teens going to the loony bin.But now it April the 17th and its about 5 o'clock in the afternoon and the visits seem to be slowing down.A minute Seems like an hour and Visits slow down. It seem more boring and it seem to get easy to count seconds, minute,and hours. I never feel tired anymore.Its like I was vampire or something and I wont have to worry about life, Its frozen right now. I know when I'm dreaming too, because it's like a flash of light that enters my mind and I'm glad I can still dream. It keeps me company and sane without I would be bored out of my mind.