• You say you are alone when you aren't.

    You talk of the darkness as a wall blocking your progress.

    "memories and insecurities. they stew, an ugly mess. leaving me. more lost" these are but things in your head.

    Things to keep yourself in a comfort zone.

    This wall of darkness must be broken, destroyed, and removed.

    Else you won't be able to move onwards.

    The light which blinds you is not to be feared.

    This light illuminates all the darkness.

    Yet you must allow it to do so.

    The light isn't a hinderance as you say it is.

    It's a blessing which you must use to your full extent.

    As for losing the fight in the darkness....

    One cannot simply lose, there is trial and tribulation,

    of which one must battle themselves as well as others.

    You see yourself as clinging on desperately but in reality you are neither winning or losing.

    You are really merely in a stalemate,

    Stuck between winning and losing and the outcome only being declared at the end of every thing.

    Take a look around you.

    See the friends that would help you through everything.

    They are the ones that will be there til the end.

    The end when the true victor is decided.