• my one fear is being alone and i have to face it everyday no matter how many people are around
    i am alone on the inside so everyday i am swallowed up by my fear and i die a little at a time
    slowly my fear is killing me and there is nothing i can do about it cause it would hurt far more
    to let anyone in again i tried once and i got hurt more then i thought was posible now i am scared
    to let anyone in after all being alone might be killing me it is a painless death maybe one day
    if i find the right one i will let her in but how will i know that i found her and what if i am
    wrong then i am just going to end up hurt again and it would kill me if that happend again i
    think that i might have found the one but what if she is not i don't know what to do i guess i
    will never know unless i let her in and find out she tells me she loves me and i belive her maybe
    she is the one god i hope she is i truly feel like i love her