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If you knew this was the last time you were ever going to hear from me, what would you say? What would you do? Or would you be apathetic to my to-be absence?
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Incomplete Thoughts at my weakest moments

My heart tends to beat
Harder and faster
When I think of him

The essense of his existense
Warms the coldest parts of my heart
His words sooth my soul

Tears seem to drop
Slowly
When you're the one crying
The pain
Fades
But the memory
Stands as vivid as ever
You can't feel it
Anymore
But the gap is there

I realize how little
I mean to you now
I didn't notice your apathy towards me
Until now
I feel alone
Ignored
Stupid
Those 3 things
Are the things you wished I never felt or would feel
I know
Because you have so much apathy towards me
You won't ever read this
And you'll never know how I feel
Love hurts
Point blank

Alone
How can there be so many people that "love" me
And I still not feel complete?
Do I make these issues on my own?

He's all I've ever wanted
But alas
I realize
That dreams don't come true
But how I wish
That they would

The possibility of words
The messages left to be heard
By the thoughts of genii

A fool
I'm nothing but a fool
Giving in to the illusions
That I thought were love
Foolish infatuations
How could I be so stupid?
Spineless Stupid repulsive
At my weakest hour
I hear those words
Echoing in my head
Quickly, I put myself
Back together again
I worry about people
They don't worry about me
My thoughts: It's 2 in the morning and I'm thinking too much. I want to cry but I can't so whoop...I guess..I miss the way things used to be.

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