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Ok so I'm working on this strategy to get into the frame of mind to write in gorey tones. I seem to fail at getting into the mind to accept murder without hesitation on any level of gore.

I really want to write this that will make the skin of others crawl as they read it; but it is never enough so my supposition is that I hesitate to go all out.
Either I am subliminally hesitating or I have a very near-sighted point of view on this subjuect so I seem to lack moral idea or aspect of what this art really is about.
So I ask myself; is it that I can't torture to save my a** or is it that I lack perspective. And then I further question my ideal goal; fear.

What is fear to us all but an emotion that is essentially the fear of death. We fear because we are afraid to die. But once we accept this emotion then we aren't afraid to die and we lose fear unless it to become something we fear of becomeing. Then I go back to my question. Why can't I write a good gore story? Why can't I strike fear into my readers? And then it hit me, I know the answer. So now I only ponder how to do it. These things, these ideas are all on the tip of my tonuge but they are locked away with the mere reason that we are taught to avoid these thoughts and feelings; so I have intentionally locked them away throughout my life.

All I want to do is unlock it.