Not that I think anyone reads this, or cares about the goings on of my life, but it's nice to have a record of my own thoughts that won't be destroyed in a fire...
Well, I've been back in school for two semesters now. I started back in the Spring, and then made up for the Fall semester I missed over the Summer. And I start back in the Fall 07 semester tomorrow. Economics, Sociology, Sociology, and Art.
Should be fun.
I've successfully gotten a date with a very cute, very in-to me guy, who actually grooms, showers, wears clean clothes and shares common interests. And yet...Nothing. And that pisses me off to no end. He meets all my requirements, and yet there's no spark on my end.
You know, I haven't had the butterflies since I was 12. EIGHT YEARS. No butterflies. I'm really wondering if there's something wrong with me. But of course, if I want to be optimisitc, I could just say that God is withholding them until I meet the right guy, and then I'll get them back so I'll be sure to know when it happens. But, right now, I'm just so lonely, but I'm still not the kind of girl that does things just for the hell of it. I'm not going to kiss someone I don't feel anything for just for the hell of it, and certainly none of those things that go beyond kissing.
Maybe I'm too self conscious about my flat chest, or maybe I know that dating a guy that isn't white will cause issues in my family, or maybe muscles really are important to me [I'm thinking here of my grande attraction to Daniel Craig and his manly, manly physique]. Or maybe I have been ruined my manga, archetypal romantic figures, and my own imagination. But, at least I know that I not repugnant, and that I can score a hottie if I so choose. That's always nice to know.
I guess I'm still just waiting.
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