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My first entry. Where ever do I start? So much in my life has happened over just 3 weeks.
Pretty chaotic in a funny sense of living.. that I have only just begun experincing these new feelings after so long, living in such pain. -so emo-
So firstly.. to clear things up in a nice fashion I will explain myself and my purpose of life at this very moment, where I stand.
In January I met this boy. Lets call him, Comet.
My friend (we'll call him Star) started to like him quite a lot. But the most oddest thing about this was that Comet didn't seem to show feelings towards Star.. but instead showed feelings towards me. I at the time didn't like him, and wasn't even sure if he liked me. It just seemed a fair bit obvious. He would call out my name and hug me everytime he saw me, large, meaningful hugs.
After a while. Star started to get over him. But as soon as that happened, I started to like him! o__o;
I started like him a few days before Valentines Day. Luckily enough, I got to see him on Valentines Day too. He said he enjoyed seeing me on that day, that made me feel over the moon.

As time went on, I started to grow bigger feelings for Comet. It was getting to a point where I couldn't hold it in much longer. Because it seemed so obvious to me he felt the same way. From the hugs, the compliments and just even the way he looked at me, suggested that something was suppost to happen between us. So I tell him, he doesn't say he liked me back.
Star then asked him a few days later if he liked me.. but he said he didn't like me like that right now, but maybe if we got closer something might happen.
That tore my heart in two, but it was okay because there was still a chance..
(Or so I thought)
A few weeks later I saw him again, it seemed as if he forgot about everything that had "happened" between us and he just ignored me.
I forgot about him.
It was just so hard.
But something that gave me such strength was someone else.. I'll call him Sun. He is the most amazing person I have ever met.
We started to get to know eachother very well. We are so close right now. It makes me smile because he told me he likes me, and has strong feelings for me. heart
And its great because I feel the exact same way for him! He is just so perfect.
I saw him last Saturday.. but we were both to shy to say anything heh. He sent me a txt saying sorry about it.
And speaking of which.. he sends me txts just before I go to sleep wishing me beautiful and perfect dreams. smile
He also sent me a txt in the middle of night, so that I could wake up with a smile by reading it. He is the CUTEST boy ever.
I'm seriously falling head over heels.

But its so odd.
Just when I forget and grow around Comet, he begins to be extra nice to me again.. and he asked me to a see a movie with him tonight.
I couldn't actually go. He wanted to see Prom Night (EEEK! Scarrry!) and I wouldn't be allowed anyway. But he then said "Thats okay, we can just hang out another time."
I told Sun that he asked me to hang out at the movies with him tonight.. and he got upset.
He sent me a txt saying he was scared of losing me.. but then that he doesn't want me to miss on the chance of growing up and meeting new loves.
But all I ever want to love, and can love is him.
I told him that, and now everything is perfect between us.
I had a pretty hecktic day, but not in the good sense. But now all is good!
I am just worried about the whole thing with Comet.
I am over him.. but I still would love to go to the movies/hang out with him.. is that wrong? Just as friends though.. but what if something were to happen?
Would I hesitate back, and think of Sun and only Sun? Or would I be a stupid b***h and step forward?
I wouldn't do that. I know so, I feel as if Sun could seriously be the one for me. And only me.
As much as that sounds stupid because I am so young.. I just connect so well with him.