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it seems that all I always write about sorrow...but thats just how I am apparently I have been treated badly so I dont have to many fond memories just yet...can anyone out there make me feel like I belong...not many can I know one person can but I can never see that one person that makes me feel like I belong and that I matter to them, one day I will be free from all this torture but how long will that be, my life isnt as bad as many people I suppose but you know what this isnt their story this is mine, I have always been alone I stay in my room away from people because I like it like that, but I cant hide the fact that there is always that creeping loneliness in my heart, the one that threatens to engulf my whole body and plunge me into a deep dark sarrow that not even my closes friends could drag me out of, there are those people that send me careening over that line so that I dont want to talk to anyone ever again, my feelings have their limits and so it seems that they are finally coming to an end, I was ment to be a sad person, not the kind that infects others with this burden but someone that carries it themself and never looks back on the happier days when all they had to do is just play around with friends without feeling the slightest bit lonely, but hey I will live my days one day at a time and hopefully I will leave this feeling far behind, but until then I will be somewhere wishing that life would just pass me by......