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I make my own plans
Making sure something in my life remains constant
I sometimes leave you out
And ignore what you say on purpose
I don't want for me to be into you
I want to walk beside you
I fear that should I call you before I sleep
Kiss you before you leave
And convey to you how I truly think of you
When you think I don't care
That I'll lose a part of myself
Should I dedicate one ounce of my being to you
I may lose all of me
It's happened before
It took all I had to realize that I put my self worth into having someone
I don't want to feel
I don't want to hurt myself
In the end, I want to have some pieces left of myself
I couldn't bear taking "the leap" and falling into a perpetual abyss of self loathing
I can't voice this
You may hear me
And send me back to where I've been
Just because my heart beats for you when you're here
Doesn't mean yours does for me...
I want something left for me to grasp onto
In the end, I have doomed us both
Because my mouth refuses to voice my heart
Should I tell you
What will happen?
Answer that and I may faintly whisper it into your ear