God, and I thought this year would be great...
Last Wednesday, my mom found out Tim was gay...
She took it pretty well, and she said she honestly can't believe it...
Then, the next night, Tim called and told me his dad won't let him see anyone out of school.
My heart broke. I couldn't even talk the whole 20 minutes we stayed on the phone. Maybe I should take this as a sign, maybe not...
And to me it seems like we're growing apart...
I miss the person I could tell anything and talk on the phone for like 2 and a half hours, and I trust him and all, but sometimes I wonder if I could tell him the thing I've been hiding from him since the end of last school year...
"I don't wanna talk, because it makes me feel sad. And I understand you've come to shake my hand I apologize if it makes you feel bad seeing me so tense, no self-confidence...but you see...
The winner takes it all, the winner takes it all, the game is on again. A lover or a friend, a big thing or a small the winner takes it all..."
Oh well, I always have to give up my happiness so others can live happily, no matter how much it kills me...and no matter how rarely I find happiness, I always have to give it away, to someone else, yet I have the gall to help others keep theirs...
The winner takes it all...and I'm left with nothing...
So I must be the loser...
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