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It's September now, and tomorrow I'll be at school. I have this odd feeling in the pit of my stomach. I'm not sure whether it is excitement or nervousness, and I know neither of those should be bothering me now.

There is nothing exciting about this year at school. Sure, it's my last, but there's not going to be much different than last year besides my courses... And I do want to go back, but I don't feel so strongly as to make me feel excited to the point of feeling ill. And I shouldn't be nervous. I shouldn't be worrying about the umpteen things I am right now, because most of them are honestly beyond any control I have. I should be trying not to think about it, I should be following the advice of the one person I trust entirely. I wish it were that easy.

It seems my body and mind aren't going to cooperate with me today. I want to stop feeling like this, but even when I don't directly think about those things, it seems they're still on my mind. What can I do about that? Hopefully things will go well tomorrow, and hopefully I will be able to see him, I certainly have missed him these last two months. We have a lot to talk about.

Have you ever missed someone so much that you've thought about them every day? That's how I've felt. Even when I was in England, I thought about him. See, he's the only person I can trust entirely and the only one I can talk to freely, he's a good friend, a very good friend. He's the one I would go to if I ever managed to get myself into trouble, he always knows what to do.

Anyways, I feel kind of ill because of tomorrow. I just hope that everything works out for the best. I can start things off like that, as long as I manage not to forget anything at home. That'd be a nice first.