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Its really werid.
Just because you loved someone so much, doesn't mean they will be the only one you love. Because if they move on, surely you can too?
He leaves tomorrow.. or in a few days. Either way.
I don't want him to leave, but merely out of friendship.
I think the ship has finally sailed. I don't want to hold on anymore.
You have no idea how long I've been asuring myself that I don't like him anymore.
But hearing his voice for the first time in months was what made me need him more.
I hate that he is moving to be with someone, although whenever I speak to him he will always note that if I was the same age, he'd want to be with me. Like, everytime.
That didn't matter before, now did it?
I don't want to make it seem like you're the bad guy. I'm the bad guy.
I get mad because you're with someone else. I need to get over myself.
Sure, I loved you. You loved me. Just because you don't anymore doesn't mean you never did.

I just don't want you to leave.. I'm still your friend. Friends don't like when other friends leave.
When will I ever see you again?
You promised, promised me that you will see me again soon.
That was like a month ago.
Now you're moving states.
When will I see you? What, 3 years or something probabaly?
I thought 4 months was a lot.

Do I need you anymore?
No.
You have someone else, so thats what I want too.
And I think I might have found what I want..
But yet again..
Something.. someone I can't have..
Why do I always want what I can't have?
Everytime.

First, I wanted someone who was bi.
More into guys than girls.
Next, I wanted someone who was too old for me.
Yeah, I know that doesn't matter. Love can't be helped,
But it can't be worked out.
Now yet again.. age is standing between me and something I lately want.
Only 3 years.
Almost 2.
Is that so bad? No, no its not.

I'm surely over you.
I loved you.
I know I did my best to be yours.