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So. It turns out I don't like this other guy. Maybe only because I haven't been able to talk to him that much. But I did talk to him yesterday. And I was like happy ha. But more just happy I heard from him. I really do believe I don't like him.
Because well this whole this is just out of ******** control.
Its been over 4 months.
I actually got to talk to him again. And he was back to his normal self.
Normal; as in the person I knew. The way he used to be.
Um.
He says he wants to come back? He says he misses me? Wants to see me? Dreams of me? That he would kiss me?
What is going on?
And then he says how much he loves his actual girlfriend?
I don't understand.
Well I really don't know. Its things like that which make getting over it harder?
I don't even want to get over it in all honesty.
There is no one else I want. There could seriously be no one else that makes me feel the way he does.
I know I'm young but I don't get this feeling from anyone else..
I never could..
I'm so scared. I don't know what to do. Um.