I want to close my eyes, fade to black, and vanish into a void where not even memory penetrates. I've flipped out too many times, I've made so many people run scared from me, I've made myself undesirable at the least and expendable to be frank.
Everyone who says they might need me has someone else to count on. Allright?! That's all there is to it. So ******** off and let me die. I'm tired of being this stupid shithole. I'm not begging for you to tell me otherwise, either. It's the simple truth, don't argue!
There's nothing worth keeping here.
Move along, folks, move along, nothing to see here.
I'm a casual friend to Aimee, yes, don't be offended by that if you DO dare read this, it's just how it is. You're the only friend I've had all my life but I'm always just kinda... there... when I'm with you... there's always someone more important to you, and while I can't take that, it's your prerogative and none of my business.
Everyone else it's been less than a year or two. It's going to die off just like everything else. Tuna's already started it. I'm ********. All I am to George anymore is a liability and a "pretty face" which, don't argue with me, I DON'T SEE.
Shawn and I keep getting closer but anyone can see it's going to go sour if I let it continue. I'll ******** it up like always.
I keep thinking I need friends but it only brings me pain. So I think, No friends for me? Just cut myself off from people and live alone?
Can't do it. I'm a ******** lonely person. Leave me alone a SECOND and I feel like I could cry.
I hate that I have to love people unconditionally, because it never gets returned...
UGH! God what an ego I have!
Of course it's returned, you spooky ********, you're just a greedy b***h!
-_-
Shutting up now.
......hopefully for good.
Everyone who says they might need me has someone else to count on. Allright?! That's all there is to it. So ******** off and let me die. I'm tired of being this stupid shithole. I'm not begging for you to tell me otherwise, either. It's the simple truth, don't argue!
There's nothing worth keeping here.
Move along, folks, move along, nothing to see here.
I'm a casual friend to Aimee, yes, don't be offended by that if you DO dare read this, it's just how it is. You're the only friend I've had all my life but I'm always just kinda... there... when I'm with you... there's always someone more important to you, and while I can't take that, it's your prerogative and none of my business.
Everyone else it's been less than a year or two. It's going to die off just like everything else. Tuna's already started it. I'm ********. All I am to George anymore is a liability and a "pretty face" which, don't argue with me, I DON'T SEE.
Shawn and I keep getting closer but anyone can see it's going to go sour if I let it continue. I'll ******** it up like always.
I keep thinking I need friends but it only brings me pain. So I think, No friends for me? Just cut myself off from people and live alone?
Can't do it. I'm a ******** lonely person. Leave me alone a SECOND and I feel like I could cry.
I hate that I have to love people unconditionally, because it never gets returned...
UGH! God what an ego I have!
Of course it's returned, you spooky ********, you're just a greedy b***h!
-_-
Shutting up now.
......hopefully for good.
