Welcome to Gaia! :: View User's Journal | Gaia Journals

“god” and God
I read books, analyzed the words, realized it didn’t make sense
I talked to friends, discussed faith and religion, and came to a decision;
I crawled into my intellect, realizing that all the dogmatic rules and rituals were not worth following to the letter
And if their “God” would not accept people for the color of their skin, the way they expressed love, or if they didn’t worship the “right” way, then I would not devote my life to such a tyrannous deity

But when her life was in my hands, when it was up to me to save her and I there was no one to turn to,
I clasped my hands together the way I did as a child, I closed my eyes tight and whispered:
“Please God…Please save her….Please Please Please save her…”
And I was given to courage to say the thing that saved her life…and she said she would be ok and that I “saved her life” and without thinking, I thanked God…
God…no longer with quotes…I can’t say I’m returning to the faith, and I can’t say I’ll be a praying man for the rest of my life…but I felt something and I was able to help her by saying “I love you”
Was it God’s love? I don’t know if I would go that far…
Was it divine? Absolutely...
Is that good enough for me? It is for now.