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I sneaked back on the computer before im going to bed..I just..why did Amber do that..I love her with all my heart and soul..just..idk..it makes me feel nervous about everything now..I dont know what reality..and whats an act..does she really want to make love to me, or just..a trick?..Idk why she did that!..I wish I knew why..she knows I dont like it when people act like dolls..its so irritating..I dont want her body..that is just a material object on this world..what I want is her Love..that..that is unobtainable..unless the bearer presents it so!..to be her soulmate..one of the greatest things I will ever be..possible THE greatest thing..but after that response:no i dont want to do it...neh..it brings a chill on my spine..you see..Sex and Love is like a two different species of the body..Sex is just..wanting of the body, and heavens no I do not want that..but I want Love..the system that drives humans foward..Love is..spiritual, and physical..the thicker the bond, the stronger the couple become..the rarest get to share their love to each other daily (which even I am surprised by their vigor and energy for their hearts content!)..you see, even if the bearers age, they still wish to Love one another..Love is beyond power..it probably is power..but after that..Im not sure what Amber has in store for me..which is what im fearing the most.. heart