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...I cant believe this is happening, Amber thinks I said Im going to kill her..thats rediculous!! after all that time I spent fighting the hazards and slamming into this freakish person, she thinks I want to..kill her?? NOOO!!! I WANT TO LOVE HER!!! why in the world would I do that?! It doesnt make any sense! I love her! I want to have kids with ehr a family is waiting for me over there!! they all are and I love them, But I love Amber the most in all of history, and the universe itself!! nothing will bend my will from her and nothing shall!! If I must stab my soul into stone then shall it be!! I love her and I will always want to be with her... heart heart forever with two hearts of love in a eternal embrace...but now as she leaves tonight..I don't know if I'll even make it through the night..I feel like the insanity is gonna break through me and my heart hattering, My soul will always search for her and bind to her..why cant she see that..why cant...ANYONE...i feel like Im talking to myself in the dark, no one...no one to reassure me..no one to tell me "Im here Carl, dont cry"..whats the use in living if people are there to hunt me down and torture me..I mean even my Lover, Amber, thinks I want to kill her, yet I want to love her..I mean I saw a clone on SA, zerginfe5tor..but cmon..he was light orange im red..who was telling me im gay..he can drop dead, i mean cmon anyone can see through his guise...right?..right??...


P.S. sorry niece here, my uncle couldnt finish this so ya he just tearin up....listen I hope like ******** reads this..or her friends or whatevah!!..but Carls hurtin man..this aint funneh s**t..he loves ya auntie.....but I cant believe you tink he say that of you..he nevah said any s**t like that about you to me...