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well im lost confused as usual there are 3 billion thoughts running through my head and none of which make seance. what do i feel, what do i think? how am i supposed to feel after my past? Even if i do feel how do i know its right? god damn it, thinking is the worst eh? one thought crosses my mind and BLAM a whole week of depression.theirs only a few things i actually enjoy thinking about music, weed, and someone special, what is going on right now, why do i start thinking when im happy wtf? WHY NAO. i don't really know the answer to that but im guessing it would go something like this "kill yourself" sometimes that seems like the only way to escape the shackles that is my own consciousness. but that wouldn't truly solve the problem, and i promised someone that would never try that again. So now i have brought everything down to a boil, and i have a resulting question, do i leave my past behind for good or do i keep it along with all of what its taught me?