so i have made my decision, im leaving my past behind, iv decided a second shot at happiness is better then any knowledge iv gained over the years, im completely breaking all of the promise's i made myself and starting anew and for the first time im scared. i dont know what im really going to do like what if it goes downhill and im left broken, what if something else happens? i really don't know what id do. but i do know where i stand now. and thats cloud nine : D