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so if you didnt already know by now, bryce and i broke up crying
i got asked soooo many times today "why?" and to make it worse, so many ppl said "but you guys were so happy yesterday! what happened?". everytime some1 said that, i just said "I KNOW!" and felt like crawling up in a corner and crying....
so here's what happened cause im NOT repeating this again and again...too much pain...
so im not allowed to have a bf right? well, after the third (or 4th, idk) time that my brother caught me and bryce kissing, he's going to tell my parents about it (again! he told them last time too) and this time my dad is going to get involved. if you dont know my dad and how he is when he's mad at me, then consider yourself the luckiest person alive. my dad is going to kill me, not to mention what my mom will do...
to make a long story short, there are many main reasons why we broke up. here are 3 of them for an example (im my veiw that is):
1) i dont think im worth all this trouble. i cant keep hurting bryce like this...it kills me everytime i hurt him...
2) my parents are driving my crazy! i thought they would just get the picture and realize that we are in love and want to be together, but they are so f^#@ing stubborn, that i KNOW they will keep at me for as long as it takes. and the longer it goes, the worse it will be, because they will control if i can go to the movies with him, when i can see him out of school basically, which will be never. evil bryce doesnt deserve to be put through that sweatdrop
3)bryce deserves sooo much better than me cry

im know there are more, but i really dont want to write/talk about it right now... if anyone saw me at school today, i was pretty histerical, crying most of the time and feeling like the biggest b***h in the world. i still feel that way too.
so ya, thats whats going on.... sweatdrop
i still love him....that will never change, no matter what happens... heart