Saturday Dec. 11, 04
It’s quiet.
This is my last entry.
My mirror keeps staring at me. He looks pitiful.
Stop looking at me. It’s all your fault anyway. You’ve done this to yourself.
I love pain. But pain is pain. It’s an addiction. Withdrawal leaves me so empty.
There’s no going back, you know. No back route. This is a one-way deal. Only Arkiila can kill Arkiila. This was destined. Everything is, isn’t it? Hindsight is 20/20. Make history, you ********.
It really is sad how much I argue with myself. No, it isn’t.
You’re making this up. You don’t feel any of this. You just want attention.
Why would I do this for attention??
You’re not serious. You don’t feel. Can’t feel. You don’t matter.
BLEED
I hate that I live while others die. I don’t deserve what others fight for. Kill me and displace it.
******** HELL
I want to dream through eternity.
Help me.
No.
Don’t.
Leave me. DEATH
Don’t leave me.
Oh God, I can’t take this!
It’s 10:00.
It’s late.
It’s too late.
STOP ******** LYING!!!!
I HATE YOU
One ridiculous contradiction after another.
I’m leaving it all here.
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