I keep having fleeting flue like symptoms so it's hard to know what I'm supposed to expect. Iner experienced undeniable flu conditions and he's been getting over it. It's so annoying. I feel a little flutter in my stomach and other things have occurred but I'm not ILL. I just wish I knew what to expect if I can just carry on with my life or keep a bucket handy.
My supervisor went and bought me a chicken and chicken soup and I feel terrible that I'm not that ill yet. The fatigue was real, the stomach flutter is real and one condition was definitely real but I'm not ill. I feel like I was making a big deal out of nothing and caused those around me to feel bad for me for nothing.
I ordered a new phone because mine won't turn on for crap. It won't get here for two more days. It always happens to me on a Sunday so I have to wait an extra day. Also the deductible went up but it wasn't supposed to happen until March so that pissed me off. Once these phones are paid off I'm gonna go to Tmobile. I'm so tired of this nonsense.
I am feeling really gross emotionally though, I want to clean but I also don't feel like moving. I want to do some kind of craft project but nothing seems fun. I want to do research on spirituality that will make sense to me but I'm just tired. I want to get a proposal for work started to improve things but now I'm not inspired. I wanted to get my ipod connected so that I could add music to it for my patients at work but I'm just not interested enough to do it. The only thing I feel like doing is just avoiding everything at all costs and just watching the minutes go by. I always feel like this. It's not going to just go away. So I guess I should just do it all but the thing is some of these things like art projects and looking into what interests me takes a certain mindset that I don't have. I can't make anything if I have no clear idea of what I want to do.
Many emotional stresses from certain aspects at work are keeping me rattled too. I feel like stitching off constantly so these things don't bother me but then I can't really switch on when I'm home so I can care about things like a normal person and get things done for myself.
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