My friend calls me Little Ms. Emo now. =/ Now isn't that being a bit harsh? It's not the name that bothers me. It's the meaning BEHIND the name. D:
D:< Fine! Two can play at that! YOU'RE A BIG FAT MANWHORE! scream
It doesn't really matter though. I'm not going to make a big deal out of it. I have more important things to deal with these days.
Okay, now let's catch up on what everyone missed out on in my life! :]
Okay, so the school therapest called my parents and told them that she would like to speck with the psychiatrist I saw because she believes that I had more selfesteem in Summer school than I do now. They're wasting their time because they'll just put me on another anti-depressent and only hope that this one doesn't fail like all the others.
D: I'm tired of being sad. It can be so humiliating! Whenever someone asks me how I'm feeling in the morning, I don't want to tell them I'm sad because that's what I said yesterday and the day before!
Oh! And the guy who doesn't like me, Josh, is starting to REALLY piss me off! All he does is glare and get mad at me! He also makes sidecomments when I say something or when someone gives me a compliment, trying to make me feel bad. All I can do is smile when he does it, even if it bothers me. I can't really do anything else. It's not like I'm going to confront him about it. If he's going to be mean, then I'll keep the frustration to myself. If I bottle it up enough, I could last about another couple months before I have a big outburst in the classrom infront of everyone. And just like when someone else starts to yell and scream in the classroom, everyone will ignore it, and pretend that nothing is happening. That's what the teachers and staff have made them do.
If I don't get out of the school on my own, then my mom will take me out because she's getting conserned about all the stories I tell her of what the kids in the classrom do when they get all upset. They scream and cuss and curse at the teachers and staff. I can hardly believe my ears when it happens, but I never say anything. In fact, I never look up from my work.
Goodnight everyone!
With Love, Heather
Sunshine Heather · Wed Sep 20, 2006 @ 05:11am · 0 Comments |