Trying to hide wheres no place to hide, just wanting disappear, pretending Im ok when Im not, crashing with a wall and just stay there dying every second, forgetting what I was what I had. Going back to that silence were only I know whats wrong whats ok, just in my little corner where I cant hurt anyone only myself. Just being back to the way I used to be, being there at the same time Im not, inside a little glass no one can break only but me, just in a place where is me and the little pieces that are part of my life. A life I hate so much, a life that its being a burden. Trying to feel happy with those few good moments I have, the ones that barely give me a good reason to keep trying, but the same ones that banish for one time to other.
Did I was trying so hard to denied what in a mean time was gonna happen? I think I expected too much when I said Im finally happy, I expected too much when I meant everything is gonna be alright. I pretended to be strong when the reality is that Im the weakest person ever, Ill try to fight Ill try to make this work good, but I never realize that after all this was the end for me.
So this is it. Like I said Im going back to what I used to be. Im going back to the silence. To keep what hurts me only for me, too look but dont ask, to hear everyone without sharing my thoughts. After all everything was better that way, everything will be better that way. I cant keep making people's life worst that they are.
Is me alone for now on... only me...
 Sweet`Angel · Tue Jan 30, 2007 @ 04:34pm · 2 Comments |
