Im so happy lately. Not to say I wasn't happy before, because I was, but it was more of a "Life sucks less today" kind of happy. Its just so nice to have someone who thinks at least similarly to you and cares about you just as much as you care about them, you know? Just being around him makes my day so much better. I love seeing him and making him laugh. When I get to make him laugh it makes me happy ^.^ He's just so great! Myesh! Im trying to keep myself from going on and on about him, but Im failing miserably.
His friends are great, too. I wish I was less shy around them, but Im always like that around people I don't know too well. They're really funny and just generally fun to be around, whether I talk or not.
I spose Im a little scared too. I don't want to screw anything up with him. Im always afraid Im going to do something stupid or that Ill just suddenly stop making him happy or I wont talk enough and become boring to him. It sounds rediculous, right? I guess I just can't help it...
Also, Si-chi and IG are going out now. Im happy for them because I always thought that maybe they should get together because they seem to have a lot in common, but I didnt think quite how much it would make it feel like IG just totally alienated me. I can't go to his house alone like I used to, because it would be awkward and Si-chi wouldnt like it. I completely understand why, because I wouldnt like it much if she went to Mi-chan's house all alone. Not that I dont trust them, just that I tend to be a very jealous person. I try not, but past experiences have made it near impossible. But IG was my amuzing little shadow...Now he doesn't even say hi to me at lunch. He's too busy clinging to Si-chi. I guess its just that I feel like he doesnt care that I exist now that he has someone to be all kissy smoochie on.
Don't get me wrong, Im happy for them. If they didn't get together themselves, I was going to try to get them together. I just didn't expect how distant IG would start to seem.
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