Natalie and I had broken up on Saturday, exactly 7 days before we were to see each other for the first time. Never had I felt so much love so quickly, and in three sentences it was gone. We had been dating for 3 months, as of December 27 of 2006, and we loved each other - I still do, and she says she does, and I want to believe that.
I've made three decisions.
She says the choice is mine on whether or not I'll visit, and I've decided that I will. I can't offer the same notions that the guy she's with now can, nor can I offer anything more than what I have. What I can offer her is my heart, my soul, and commitment for the rest of her life.
Second. I've decided that I will wait for her. I can not fall in love with anyone else, as I believe she and I were brought together for a reason and have eyes only for her. If it takes me till my grave, I will wait for her and continue to love her for the rest of my days.
I respect her, I respect that she would rather have the guy with more to offer, and I respect that she doesn't want me because of distance. I want her to be happy, but on the same token, I want to be happy too. So, finally, I've decided that I am going to fight for her heart.
I love her. There's nothing that's going to change that.
Edit: It seems things have nulled. I will wait for her, but I had not the ability to visit, nor can I fight for her. I want her to be happy, so I'm helping her make things perfect with him.
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