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It's not what it looks like, I swear.

And that just what you know



Damn it, damn it, damn it. I was doing so good. I was moving on and feeling no regret for a while, but now I'm relapsing - my heart is growing on her again, even though we haven't talked much in the past few days. Honestly, I would like nothing better than to have her in my arms, if only for a little while. She did break my heart, but my heart has mended and follows what it really wants and needs: her. I've been coding a lot recently, but I think I've been using it as a distraction. No matter what I'm doing, she's still there in my mind; My distractions have only slowed the steady easing my heart has been doing towards her again. I thought I could get over this, but I just can't.

Posted by: Lord-of-the-flies Tue Apr 03, 2007 @ 11:03pm

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kotou the star goddess
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Commented on: Wed Apr 11, 2007 @ 06:42pm


	LOTF this is probably the saddest thing I have come across. I am litterally tearing up because, I know how you feel, I've felt that same way before! It has to be hurting you a lot, I know it, and knowing there isn't much you can do to make things better, that's just, so much worse. I believe what you and Natalie had in that time is more than the more popular LSG couples have, or could amount to have. You have such a good and strong heart, to be able to accept this, and move on slowly even if it does eat away at you. If you ever need anyone, feel free to talk to me, I may not be the BEST at advice, but having been there and done that, I can at least give consolation.

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