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My mind's a kaleidoscope, it thinks too fast<br />
Blurs all the colors 'til I can't see past<br />
The last mistake, the choice I made<br />
Staring in the mirror with myself to blame<br />
Sometimes I'm afraid of the thoughts inside<br />
Nowhere to hide inside my mind<br />
I'm scared that you'll compare and I'll look a lifetime past repair<br />
I second guess myself to death, I re-solicit every step<br />
What if my words are meaningless? What if my heart's misleading this?<br />
I try to capture every moment as it comes to me<br />
Bottle up the memories and let them keep me company<br />
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When the hope of morning starts to fade in me<br />
I don't dare let darkness have its way with me<br />
And the hope of morning makes me worth the fight<br />
I will not be giving in tonight<br />
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When I'm old and grey, or thirty, or whatever happens first,<br />
I'll need you to reassure me I didn't waste a verse<br />
Or worse, what if my life's work is reduced to just myself<br />
Like never let you get a word in, while I dissect my mental health<br />
Or lack thereof, whatever, there's too many things to track<br />
I really can't remember if I'm insane or insomniac<br />
Now days, all the kids want crazy, wanna diagnose themselves<br />
Trade up made up epidemics, pass around prescription pills<br />
But my disorder can't be cured by a bottle, blade, or dose<br />
Self-disgust and selfishness tend to hold me awfully close<br />
But I don't wanna let you see that, I don't want my friends to know<br />
Self-disgust and selfishness take me everywhere I go<br />
<br />
When the hope of morning starts to fade in me<br />
I don't dare let darkness have its way with me<br />
And the hope of morning makes me worth the fight<br />
I will not be giving in tonight<br />
<br />
Try as I might to keep it together<br />
Why is recovery taking forever<br />
Fool the whole world, just until I get better<br />
I'm terrified I'll be faking forever<br />
On and on I wonder what went wrong inside my head<br />
I don't have to have the answers, but tonight I wish I did<br />
All the pain I can't explain away won't fade<br />
All the the secrets silenced by the shame<br />
Don't make me say it [x7]<br />
<br />
When the hope of morning starts to fade in me<br />
I don't dare let darkness have its way with me<br />
And the hope of morning makes me worth the fight<br />
I will not be giving in tonight<br />
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[Chorus]