• Chapter 1
    I don't know how it happened... Okay I know how it happened. But I don't know why it happened. Okay, okay, that's a lie too. I know why it happened. But I don't know why I didn't stop myself, I should've. But I couldn't. I tried. And failed. She hates me. She'll never look at me the same way again. She'll only ever see a fool, a loser, a coward... I only wonder how people are gonna react when they hear about this at school. I'll walk down the halls and get all the 'that's her' looks and hear all their whispers that they think I can't hear. Still frustrated, I sigh, turning off my bedroom light and crawling into my queen size bed. I can't believe myself. Tomorrow is gonna be the worst day of my life.
    'BEEP, BEEP, BEEP'
    "Ugh" I moan as I wake up from my deep dreamless sleep and my arm reaches over my bed, wacking my alarm until that unstandable noise stops. I stretch and move out of bed feeling happy that I was able to escape to sleep last night. Then it comes back. This weekend, at Alex's. I groan and move out of my room into the bathroom. Why, why, why? Why was I so stupid?! Why hadn't I listened to my brain instead of my heart this time? Why does my life have to suck? Why me? But, I brought this on myself. I have no one to blame but myself. All these thoughts and questions run through my mind as I turn on the shower, strip of my clothes, and get in. I love shower's. It's like the same as sleeping for me. It's a place to forget everything. The hot water acts as a disinfectant and I feel clean again. All the dirty, bad thoughts are washed off. Everything feels different and there's no bad anymore... Until I'm finished and have to get out. Then everything hits me like a wave again. A giant wave crashing against my tiny ship and bringing my life to ruin again.
    I'm usually the only one up at this time... My sister wakes up later, so I get the bathroom to myself. I don't even care anymore, what's the point in fixing my hair to perfection and slapping on useless makeup. Instead of straightening my hair like normal I just let it curl and not bother like I do sometimes. Then a memory hits me.
    {Flashback}
    "I love your hair when you curl it." Alex says to me while smiling her amazing white smile.
    "Thanks." I reply. "But I don't curl it, I just leave it the way it is after I take my shower in the morning." I say with my own smile.
    "Well it's beautiful. I love it." She says huskily with a wink.
    {End Flashback}
    "She likes my hair curled." I say to no one but myself. Maybe I should straighten it then... Why? She likes it curled, maybe I should let it curl... With a sigh I decide to let my long brown hair curl today, and I turn off the straightner. I pull out my makeup bag and get started, but honestly, I don't really care anymore. All I put on is some eyeliner, mascara, and a little eyeshadow. With one last look in the mirror, I nod, satisfied with my appearance. After, I head back to my room to get dressed. I throw on a clean pair of jeans and a t-shirt, again not caring that it's -10 degrees outside. I've got a jacket, I tell myself. Finally I finish, just as my sister is getting up.
    "Wow, you don't take long to get ready." She tells me.
    "I don't really care today."
    "I can see that." She smirks. Stupid brat. I know younger siblings are supposed to be annoying but seriously doesn't any of it get old? And she's 15, time to start gettin' mature.
    "******** off." I snap, without even realizing it.
    "Jeez, what crawled up your a** and died? I was just kidding around." And with that she's off to the bathroom for her shower.
    The rest of my morning was pretty normal, except I couldn't eat anything and my mom kept questioning me about it.
    "Honey, are you sure your not hungry? You know breakfast is the most important meal of the day." She continuelly asks.
    "Yeah, I'm sure mom, I just feel all ooky, I'll eat at school k? I promise. I gotta go, bye." Then I was off... To school. I walk there so it didn't take too long. But as I approached those front doors my heart beat quickened. I felt like I was having a heart attack. Why hadn't I faked sick? With a long sigh I enetered the building, rushing to my locker to escape everyone, all the looks, as quickly as I could. When I lifted my head to see where I was going, I realized something. Everything was the same. No, 'that's her' looks, just a normal day. Had Alex said anything? Or was everyone just acting? I had no idea. But I'm about to find out cause the second I opened the doors to the hallway with my locker, I saw her. She was sitting on the floor reading. More importantly, right in front of my locker.
    "Oh crap." I mumbled under my breath. I squeezed my eyes shut. Hoping beyond hope I was just hallucinating. To my disappointment I wasn't. There she was... Still. Sitting, looking so peaceful. Maybe I could run... Nah I'd look too suspicious... Plus she'd hear my running footsteps and look up to see me, running away like the coward that I am. Well, I gotta face the thunder sometime.
    Slowly I made my way towards her. Although I looked fearless and brave at that moment the truth is I was scared shitless. When I approached her I held my breath. Waiting. For what? I don't know. For the worse pain to start. But it didn't. When she finally realized I was there, she closed her book and looked up at me. And to my complete surprise, she smiled. She looked at me and smiled. She smiled. What was she smiling about? But like always I couldn't fight the smile that edged it's way onto my face. I never could resist her perfect smile. Never. I guess that wasn't about to change.
    "Hey." She says softly. Which broke me out of my reverie.
    "Hi." I frowned and looked down at the tiled floor. Unable to make eye contact. Out of the corner of my eye, I watched as she she stood up from her spot on the floor. Instead of getting the slap I thought I would. Two of her fingers -her index and middle fingers- lifted my chin up so that I was forced to look at her.
    "You sound so enthusiastic to see me." She joked. "Hmm. Ahh, I know what'll fix it." And with a devishly evil grin she leaned forward and brushed her lips against mine. Her lips tasted so sweet, like strawberries. I wanted more. But just as soon as the kiss started it ended. Then it registred in my brain. She kissed me! Alex kissed me! Me! My eyes went wide as the realization hit me. "Hehe." She laughs, while biting her lower lip to hold back a smile. "Your cute when your flustered." She stated while using her right hand to close my wide open mouth.
    "Uhmm..." Was all I could get out.
    "I guess we should talk... Huh?" She's still smiling and soon I'm lost in her beautiful blue eyes, and her long, shoulder length, dark chestnut hair, that accentuates her features perfectly.
    "Ye." I choke out. "Sorry." I chuckle and shake my head. "Just trying to register in my brain what just happened."
    "Which part? The me kissing you part? Or the fact that I'm not mad about you kissing me this weekend?"
    I thought hard about it for a moment before replying, "Both"
    Just as she was about to reply, the first warning bell rang.
    "I'll see you in class... We'll talk then, k?" With a wink and a kiss to my cheek she left. I watched as she walked down the hall. I continued to watch until she was out of sight. A smile crossed my lips as I got ready for first period.
    Just as I entered the class the second bell rang. I smiled apoligetically to the teacher for almost being late, then made my way to the back, to take my seat next to Alex. Who jus smiled at me and passed me a note. Once I sat down I opened and read the note that said, 'Hey sexy, did I tell you I love it when you curl your hair' I smirked and grabbed my pen to reply. 'Yeah you did. Actually that time you told me, was going through my head this morning, when I was asking myself what to do with it.' Being as sneaky as possible, I passed the note back to Alex when the teacher was facing the board. Several moments later the note was back on my desk. It read, 'Yeah? You were thinking of me this morning? Lol, well I was thinking of you all weekend. Since you left on Saturday. Speaking of Saturday, don't worry. I'm glad you kissed me. I finally realized what I feel for you. And it's more than friendship... Which brings me to my next question... Uhm... Jess I was wondering... will you be my girlfriend?' I was unable to surpress the urge and I squealed loudly. Everyone in the class turned and looked at me. Alex burst out laughing and got a few words out between breaths, which I could only make out as, "I'll take that as a yes." Then the teacher cleared her throat and glared at us fir disrupting the lesson. I blushed three different shades of red in that instant. Alex got ahold of herself finally and apologized for the both of us.

    "Alright, now break up and find a partner to work on this with." The teacher instructed. Already I knew who my partner was gonna be. Only one name came to mind. Alex. Suddenly I felt a light tap on my shoulder. I looked to my left to see Jake, a cute football player, smiling at me. I already knew what he was gonna ask before he did, but I just waited incase I was wrong. But I was right.
    "Hey Jess, you wanna be my partner." He asked. I was about to say yes, considering the fact that hadn't asked me yet, but a voice stopped me.
    "Sorry Jake, Jess is my partner." Alex said with a not so friendly smile. Jake hlared at her and got up to find another partner.
    I laughed while looking up at Alex, whose hand was resting on my shoulder. She smiled and pulled up a chair next to mine. With a kiss to my cheek she stated, "Your my girl."
    "Yup. I guess that answers your question before." I say while examining the handout.
    "Yea huh." I look over at Alex to see her apparently mesmerized by something on my face.
    "What are you looking at?" I laughed. Her blue eyes darkened with lust and desire.
    "Your pouty sexy lips." She smirked. Making me blush. She leaned in to kiss the lips in question but my hand on her chest, pushing her back, stopped her. "What? What's wrong?" She asked.
    "Alex, we're in school... In class. Later okay... Maybe when there isn't a teacher nearby." She let out a long sigh and sat back in her chair, pouting. "Come on, don't pout." I pleaded. "It's not for long, just till break, then you can kiss me all you want." I assured her.
    "Fine." She grumbled.
    After first period we parted ways. Through the next two periods all I could think about was Alex and how badly she wanted to kiss me. Then I felt guilty for missing her at break. She wasn't mad just sorta sad that we couldn't spend the short 15 minutes between classes kissing. But lunch would be different, we'd promised to meet at her locker right after the bell, then we'd go to my locker to put my books away. After, we'd head out to the bleachers and spend the better part of lunch making out. I sighed contently as I thought about it. I was still trying to grasp the consept of us dating.

    Fourth period came quickly and I was buzzing to get out of class. Ten minutes left.
    "Hey Jess, what's up with you?"
    I turned around to see one of my best friends. Vanessa. "What do you mean?" I questioned.
    "Dude, your shaking." She stated.
    What? I wasn't shaking? I looked down at my hand and much to my surprise it was shaking. Just then I felt my leg tapping the floor continuously.
    "s**t..." I was bewildered. But at the same time I knew exactly why I was shaking. I was scared, nervous.
    "What's wrong?" She asked again.
    "Uh... Nothing... Just a little hyper... Had some coffee this morning. Not really my thing." I smiled weakly at her. I was going to tell her about Alex and I, but we had never discussed it. I didn't know if she'd want people to know about us.
    Soon enough the bell rang and I was out of there in a flash. I practically ran to Alex's locker. I was extremely excited for this lunch. As I got there, Alex was getting there too.
    "Hey." She smiled once she saw me.
    "Hey." I leaned against the locker next to hers and watched as she fiddle with her lock. Finally she got it open. Quickly, she shoved her books inside and closed it again. Locking it before she turned towards me. When I met her gaze she took a step closer. My heart rate quickened when she leaned in real close. Our bodies were just barely touching, and there was hardly enough room for a piece of paper.
    "I missed you." She whispered huskily against my lips.
    "I... I m-m-missed you t-too." I stuttered. "s**t." I reathed out. "You make me so nervous."
    Just as she was about to capture my lips in a breathtaking kiss, someone interrupted us.
    "Excuse me ladies, that's innapropriate behavior for school. Don't do it again. Thank you." A tall dark haired man, who looked like a teacher, stated. I blushed, knowing we'd been caught. But Alex was different. I know her. She'd take any statement any one said and turn it around on them.
    "What behavior are you talking about sir?" She asked. Pretending to have no idea what he meant. "Did you mean this?" She asked before leaning the rest of the way in and pushed her lips hard into mine. And before I knew it her hands were in my dark curly hair, pulling me deeper into the kiss. On instinct I dropped my books and brought my hands up to the back of her neck, while moaning into Alex's mouth.
    What seemed like hours later, but was really only seconds, Alex pulled back with a satisfied look on her face. She picked up my dropped books and grabbed my hand.
    "Bye sir." She called after the teacher before leading me to my locker.
    When we got outside, after we put my books away, Alex led me over to the bleachers.
    "Your crazy." I stated, once we were seated.
    "What?"
    "You doing that infront of a teacher. Come one Alex. Do you want a detention?"
    "No... But I didn't hear any objections." She smiled while moving to straddle my lap. "Did it bother you?" She asked. Then she leaned in and bit and sucked my earlobe. "Hmm? Baby?Should I stop?" I couldn't help but moan as her hands found my breasts and squeezed tentatively. Most people would think, 'Hey aren't they going a bit fast?' but I'm a teeneager. 16 is the age when I'm all horny and sex crazed, right? I couldn't control myself. Plus I wanted her, I wasn't about to deny myself what we both wanted.
    My hands found her thighs while she continued to suck my earlobe.
    "Baby? Am I going to fast? Do you mind if I call you baby?" She asked, moving her head so she could look me in the eyes. "Hmm?"
    "Not at all. It's just above the clothes... We're good. And you can call me whatever you want. Don't worry about it." I reassured her.
    "Good." She whispered, before kissing me hard on the mouth. I was more than willing to return the kiss and our lunch turned into a hot make-out/groping session. Anyone who looked over would see two hot brunettes making out and feeling eachother up. That was totally fine by me.