• Hopefully you will be able to understand the concept between us in which for you to understand I would have to put in simpler terms. You have no sense of well being and decide to screw a lot of stuff up. You are mostly always depressed unto which I do not care anymore. It is sometimes always my fault why bad things happen to us as a couple and I feel as if I don’t want to take that crap anymore. You try and try again until you can receive back my heart but you will never gain it. You took things that I offered to you and you stepped on them like here was no care in the world. What kind of man or human being does that? You make me feel unwanted in the hallways of the school hoping nobody will notice what we did, when in fact everyone knew. And then you go off and date her or should I say the girl with my middle name.. hmm you have no idea intentionally on how I felt when I heard this news. When I brought it up to you, you completely fell apart and gave in and said we were done. I couldn’t let that happen so I begged and pleaded for hours trying to gain us and our love back but somehow I don’t think you really cared or happened to pay any attention at all before that I wanted your affections and that I wasn’t going to let this happen,. I had passed up thousand or maybe a few opportunities so that I can be with you, but somehow in my heart I gave up a little bit on you as a boyfriend and you as a person. You mainly treated me in a manner where no girl should be treated. You sometimes defended me and I love that you did but I don’t really care anymore. I intentionally do not think about you as much as I used to. I used to think wow he is he greatest but now I think wow he can really be a screw up. I don’t think if he has to answer this memo that he will respond in an apology but into an argument that should have probably never happened in the first place. I loved you once but never again will I know this feeling of hatred into another person after I have completely dismantled their heart and threw and stepped on the ground with every last bit of their aching soul. I loved you once but never will I feel this immense non regretful time of my life where you made me feel happy and loved. I loved you once but never again. I sometimes often sit at home and think what it would have been like without you here in my life and I realized I would have not been the same person as I was last year. I’m not as happy all the time mostly glum with an angle expression on my face, but then I ask when is it the time to let go?. When is it the time I say no? when is it the time when you and I should depart? I know in fact we must depart the summer of 2012 because that is the summer I leave you, leave me behind in this wasteland of an earth. I’m not, no, I’m moving, going to college start a life, a family, anything I love an cherish. You will not be apart of. you laugh at the simplest things I do not laugh at. You block me out when I speak to you. In your mind you are thinking I can have a girlfriend but I cant let her have any boyfriends. Heck no is what I’m thinking . I’m thinking that being what we happen to be is sort of like dating but not letting anyone know. But obviously things do not matter to you anymore. Ever since I lost my phone, things have gone so haywire and I sort of miss talking to you. This ethological path is going through my head to not take your side but it’s not that you are irresistible, it is that you cannot help but always come back to me We will stay forever and things like this will never come across us again.