• written as if i were to give her this....

    emilee. i need you to know the following things. all of wich are true, always has been and always will be...
    ok you've read twillight rite? or atleast seen the movie? well you know how hard it is for edward to hold back and stay controlled around bella? well pretend your bella and im edward. i am absolutly unquestionably inlove with you, just as edward loves bella. it is so hard for me to hold back my emotions and temptations when im with you, just the same as edward with bella. the lesser i see your ever lasting beauty, the more i long to see you, when you came over this after noon. i was shocked yet overjoyed to see you. you showed me your arms, i stoped breathing for a moment. then i wonder how could you do this to your self! but i then remember all that has happend to you this summer. first i hooked you up with mason, wich i now know just how much a horid mistake that was. then because of mason you got grounded from everyone, that broke a majior peice of my heart. then just now, you come to me with an urgent messege, you have hurt yourself and i feel it is partly if not completely my falt in some way. you see had i not gotten you and mason together, you would have not gotten isolated into your house, then you wouldnt have reached such a bordom to near insanity and so you wouldnt have cut yourself, you see i take the blame for atleast most of your actions.

    also, that one night shortly before the incident with mason, you had admited your bi. i then thaught, 'omg this is my chance! we can finaly be together!' so i told you "emilee, i like you" you said "i know" i said, "no i mean i REALLY like you. i always have" you became silent. the silence was broken when we started a game, i asked you the first question. "whats your favorite song'' we went on for a good 10 minutes when i finaly asked "if you had to date a girl who would it be?" my heart beeted soo fast i felt as if it were about to pop out of my throught. there was a short pause, i was getting so very very anctious! you finally spoke, "haley" my mouth fell open.. i stared at you in disbalief... 'haley? what why why why!!' i thaught to myself. 'i i just told her i liked her! (only saying like but i was in love)' you broke my heart and ever since then i have tryed so so hard to gain your love.

    today you came over with the horid news. you hugged me 3 times. i had my hands on your waste as i slowly pulled of it was so so hard not to squeez your sides and gently kiss your bottom lip. just like bella and edward, exept edward did kiss her. i guess the point of this messege is to inform you of my struggle, my pasion and my love for you.

    i.. i come very close to insanity when im not with you, im exhilarated everytime you smile or look into imy eyes. i think i may be inlove with you...