• I'm fighting the tears that just aren't coming

    I consider the loss, but I feel nothing.

    I'd rather be anywhere that wasn't here

    Too many memories in your absence, I fear.

    I'd rather be ******** up than thinking of you.

    I can't stand the let down when your plans fall through.

    I even looked for you today..

    But I saw I was alone, and I looked away.

    I knew you wouldn't be there but it didn't matter.

    I needed the flash of hope before my faith shattered.

    So thank you for giving what I didn't need:

    Another addiction and a hateful seed.

    But somehow I know despite my efforts

    I'll keep it here with me forever.