losin' it

• Artist: saucyBOYgal
• Description: it's kind of awkward when you just say it, it's kind of a rap...
  
  i'm just really close to finishing a book i'm writing and i wrote this to express my fears. yeah...
  
  i hate my poetry. how bout you?
• Date: 06/02/2009
• Tags: panic fear writersblock

i'm losin' it
my creativity my will
my ability
to have faith in my writing skill
losin' my mind, losin' Zs
everytime i freeze
i lose my grip on reality
and fall to my knees
prayin' for a muse
to dot my i's n cross my t's
hopin', all the while, that nobody sees
i hate it
the whole thing
the part where i can't breathe
the part
where i hate
and i freak and i seethe
oh i try to make it work
i try not to go bezerk
try to act like my doubt
and my fear are just a crazy quirk
still i can't help but feel like
i've wasted my life
and that my writing is just
a big ol' jagged knife
stuck in my gut
causin' a rut
a worsenin' cut
jabbed in by my hopes, that have slowly turned to fears,
as i begin to doubt my work over the last four years
i'm losin' it.

Comments

[DoubleMintTwins18]

I like it. I kinda played it in my head with Lincoln Park. Ha. 4/5 from me. ^.^ please comment my poems. Thanks! ~xox~