• Meaning

    Shades if brown, varying constantly
    Light is captured, waiting silently
    To be released, locking onto its prey
    Leaving it paralyzed in the midst if the fray
    It holds it ensnares unvaryingly
    Binding as fetters, two souls as one

    Deep, enthralling-ever wavering
    Leaving unsuspecting prey savoring
    Every last ounce of traps so sweet
    Catching them irrevocably in one beat
    Punishing them for their ignorant knavery
    Biding as fetters, two souls as one

    Soft and warm, the perfect lure
    To flitch a prey so naive and pure
    Addictive as all else of great danger
    Always wanted yet withheld of stranger
    Of this one can always be sure
    Binding as fetters, two souls as one

    Heat and strong allure is found
    Sweet yet sickening is the sound
    When two and two make up four
    Leaving the prey craving more
    When no other soul in near around
    Binding as fetters, two souls as one

    Strong yet bitter is the beautiful scent
    Which upon the prey it is bitterly spent
    It intoxicates the prey- she is enthralled
    Alas, back to the thought from which this poem was called
    Where light is captured- then to its prey lent
    Binding as fetters, two souls as one

    No More

    Sounds enveloping, words without meaning
    Void of emotion, just another blank stare
    You can not escape from this nothingness
    Not when there’s nothing to grasp but air
    Thoughts roaming, never more than abstract
    Never more than blackness and despair
    Lost and alone, out of the light
    Dull and foreboding, leaving all behind
    Emotions kill, bringing only pain
    How I long to be stone and impassive once again
    Word by word, creating a hurt so deep
    Time can never heal- there’s just so much that even time can not erase
    It’s a one sided battle that I can not win
    I’m being punished for every thought
    Every sin
    They say I’m psycho
    Schizophrenic
    That all I bring is destruction and panic
    I will not let this break me
    My pain is something they will never get to see
    Not anymore
    I’m throwing up my shields
    Settling the score
    From now ob I am distant
    Fake smiles all around
    They won’t be there when my shields come down
    They will never again witness the tears I shed
    When my pain throbs in my heart
    In my troubled head
    No more shall they see my pain
    No more!


    Lost

    Life with no hope, filled with pain
    Cloudy skies and pouring rain
    Can leave this place but refrain
    For it’s the wounds that keep me sane
    Loved ones back home crying because they’re already missing me
    I pray by the grace of God that there is someone listening
    Give ma a chance to be that person I want to be
    I am broken, choking on my ecstasy
    Oh lord I’ll try but you’ve got to keep hold of me
    Un-break me, un-chain me, I need another chance to live
    I’m lost and alone
    At four o’clock you return me home
    In this place of despair
    Chocking on nothing but thin air
    Tears streaming down my face
    Why hast thou left me in this place?
    Like living in a bad dream
    Everything is worse than it seems
    I’ve got nothing about me that can be redeemed
    What does all of t his mean?
    No one to keep me from going under
    They don’t have what it takes
    Locked in a nightmare
    Screaming out for someone but I can’t wake
    What have I done that’s so wrong?
    No way to heal but through the insignificant song
    I have no proof that I belong
    I know I’m right to move on

    Justin (the‘s’ is Silent) Dearman

    Trust deceived, a wounded soul re-shattered
    I told you everything, but you didn’t think it mattered
    I let you in, showing you all my sorrow and pain
    You shoved me out, leaving me in the pouring rain
    We used to be so close, like two crabs sharing a shell
    How could you change your mind? How could you put me through this hell?
    You used to come to me with every problem, all your trouble
    And as the truest of friends, I came to your aid on the double
    Now we barely talk, you barely wave to me in the hall
    You once made me feel so big, now you make me feel small
    I thought you were true, my single best friend
    But you turned out to be just another jerk in the end
    You said that I could always count on you
    That nothing could come between us two
    They were nothing but empty words- false comfort
    Now all that you have left me with is more pain, more hurt
    You don’t even know what you’ve done to me
    Leaving my heart in familiar betrayal and misery
    My ex-best friend

    Broken

    A love so deep yet so unbearable breakable
    You promised me out bond was unshakable
    Alas! But in the end all it was – a black deception
    Causing pain so deep it seems to flow from every direction
    Every time we touch my wounds are cut deeper
    Every time we kiss I wish I would die
    My heart breaks so
    Oh! I can’t let you go
    For so long you’ve been my entire life
    Every whispered vow
    Amounts to nothing now
    How could you say goodbye?
    Woe, for now upon these pages I pour
    My soul into a long forgotten lore
    We were once so close
    Our love tr’er than those
    That so quickly whither and die
    Desire! I need you by my side
    Every smile I fake for you sears me
    Every false laugh you see
    These wounds are too deep
    From you, my pain I keep
    Alas! My soul screams true-
    I’m still in love with you
    You’re still my entire life
    Still, every time we touch my heart breaks faster
    And every time we kiss I’m screaming inside
    Though my heart breaks so
    I just can’t let you go
    Please don’t say goodbye.

    Shattered

    My love, my all, oh how you’ve shattered me
    That you may feel none of this pain is my plea
    Every breath hurts every beat of my heart sears
    I am lost in my endlessly flowing tears
    The horror I see when I close my eyes
    Is your face, your lips, your beautiful eyes
    Swallowed up in the sound of my screaming
    Alas! How I long for that deep-sleep dreaming
    Where your touch and your voice keep haunting me
    Binding- torturing me in this fantasy
    Woe! Darkness, this hell, this nightmare realm
    Love betrayed in this terrorizing realm
    I am lost in this deep, black abyss
    Love, how could you leave me here like this?
    Tell me, why do I still love you?
    For thee my heart does still beat true
    Alas! But why are the fates so cruel?
    I trusted you- like an utter fool!
    Now I’m shattered…broken, gone
    But for you life still goes on
    How could you take your love away from me?
    Leaving my heart in utter misery
    Despite all this you still keep my shattered heart
    I was ‘eternally yours’ from the very start.