• What I need


    What I need is a quiet place where I'm free
    I need friends who love me without seeing my flaws
    I need a song that is happy
    I need people to know I'm never serious
    I need them to know I'll always care


    I need caffeine
    I need a heart
    Someone willing to donate?
    I need something to show me I'm still alive
    I need to know I'm a human
    Am I not? Am I just a monster?


    I need humans to stop being idiots
    Because they always get themselves into trouble
    I need the voice to go away
    I need her shadow to stop casting over mine
    To be free of her sins of her past to be washed clean
    For she is always there to haunt me
    Mother....nurturer.....always there to kiss the pain away...
    ******** you
    My pain is too deep now
    You where always too late


    I need a bio hazard mask
    To keep my contamination in
    Or maybe yours out
    I like that latter because you're too ******** ridiculous
    I need you to be rational
    And not a little b***h
    For the sake of my sanity
    Ha..forgot, that's already gone


    I need to start writing happy things
    But I only like writing when I'm on the dark side of the moon
    Where the sun can't touch me
    And show me the flaws in my reasoning


    I need a lot of things
    I need so many things that's it's almost startling
    But I wont ask for them
    Nor am I egotistical and arrogant enough to think i can always get what I want
    But hey I can always say
    And I can dream
    As dreamers do
    For they're night in shining arm
    Or my prince of shadows
    But I will always need
    A need to say ******** YOU! and rip out your throat
    Because I love you too much
    And you aren't worth my pain
    My tears
    Maybe that's what I need
    Just a rant
    A rant from a nutcase

    Yours forever

    T.