• Fine?

    Yeah
    I'm fine.
    Only when I watch you laugh
    do I crumble.

    Fine?

    Sure
    I'll be fine.
    Only when I sit behind you
    does it sting
    memorizing the nape of your neck.

    Fine?

    I'll get there
    someday.
    It'd help if I could get some sleep
    most nights are lacking-
    I'm lacking spine
    a cockroach in an exoskeleton
    surviving
    but when I look at you
    you turn away
    disgusted
    it's the worst response I could imagine
    crush me
    please.
    I can't remember why
    only remembering what I should've done differently
    looping endlessly in my mind.