• There once was a girl
    I'd swear she was of gold
    The smile on her lips
    The life in her eyes
    She was very dear to me
    We were close
    So happy together
    But I never knew
    She was a devil inside
    A slave of grief
    Of pain and strife
    And all the time she loved me
    I never knew the lie
    She let it out
    Once she owned my heart
    And she stripped me
    Of my happiness and joy
    Leaving me bare and alone

    But I came back
    I never knew why
    But something inside her
    It made me sigh
    To see her now
    Surrendering and belly up
    It made me sad
    It made me cry
    It made me angry
    Frustrated to no end
    I wanted to kill her
    To kill what she had
    The hope inside
    The she couldn't see
    But I couldn't
    I just couldn't
    I still loved her
    As I do now

    She has resigned
    From driving me away
    And though I can't change her
    I will always try
    Try to make her happy
    To make her smile
    To hear her laugh
    And just hear the words
    'Thank you'
    Still, with all my effort
    Placed in her being
    My crusade
    To find her pain
    To give her happiness
    Even just a bit
    There's just no hope to see
    Just an 'I hate you'
    At every turn

    But I still try
    I've given myself to her
    Put aside my pain
    She doesn't see me suffer
    Doesn't count my tears
    Doesn't hear my cry
    Doesn't try to care
    It angers me
    To the point of no return
    That I'd be right in front of her
    Yet she'd be ignorant of the obvious
    The truth whispered in her ears
    But she simply blocks it out
    I place it in her eyes
    But she turns away
    I am lost to myself
    I don't know what to do
    So I simply pretend that it's alright

    And I have a heart for her
    She owns it even now
    And she knows it
    It sits on a shelf
    It sits in her room
    She stares at it time to time
    Then takes a needle
    Digs it deep inside
    Twists and turns
    Chills and burns
    It tortures me
    It kills me within
    But what she hasn't noticed
    Is I don't want it back
    She owns it
    I know that
    She owns me
    She doesn't realize

    I go to her
    She makes my day
    But she still hurts me
    I love her all the same
    I'll take the pain everyday
    If it makes her load lighter
    If only she would tell me
    Tell me her pain
    Let me heal her
    Let me hold her
    Welcome me inside
    Thank me for my sacrifice
    Appreciate my tears for her
    And finally let me in
    And I know it's buried inside her
    Deep in the black
    A heart to love
    To care and learn

    I can't live without her
    I have to help her
    I have to make her live
    Not wallow in selfpity
    Not mope in self-hate
    My empathy won't let me
    Her apathy won't let me.
    But one day
    And one day soon
    I'll dig deep in her black
    And I'll show her the way
    Out of the dark
    Into the sunlight
    And if it won't release her
    Take me instead
    I have no stomach
    For the lovely feast of Joy
    Not without her

    So I wait and bide
    The world was dark for me
    It rained every night
    And at the best
    The forcast was overcast
    It never lightened
    And the agony still sits
    Stagnant and sour
    In the puddles
    Where they never dry
    If she can't see it
    She must be lost
    I have no happiness
    There is no joy
    But I want it for her
    Because I can't partake
    My seat is empty
    I leave it to her

    But she won't listen
    Just sits in her own selfishness
    And I sit with her
    I coddle and protect her
    But when I'm gone
    Will her world lighten
    Is it all my fault
    Just as she says
    That she hurts
    When she hurt before
    Is it my fault
    That she cries
    When she cried before
    Can she truely say
    She's still alone
    When I stand before her
    And she refuses to see me
    Nor does she care to try

    And once her life brightens
    And she leaves me behind
    She'll still never know
    That my eternal dark was there
    Long before her's ever existed
    And I'll sit utterly alone
    Sit in the rain
    As it mixes with my tears
    And I'll close myself off
    To keep from more blame
    And I'll cry with a smile
    Glad to know she's happy
    That she's free from this darkening relm
    And while she can smile
    And find her place in life
    Surrounded by love
    While I die here
    Alone in the dark