• he's so lovely.
    oh my god, he's so lovely.


    he doesn't know that

    the way he looks at my lackadaisical mask
    and says "good morning" with a smile

    the way he touches my anemic face
    to disencumber a heavy eyelash

    is killing me.

    he looks but isn't seeing
    he touches but isn't feeling
    he is blind, he is numb.


    oh god, why.
    why must he be so lovely.