• Dear Diary,

    You see? I'm in love with this guy...
    Responsible..
    Loving..
    Humble..
    Faithful (to me..)
    and has Faith in HIM..
    he was so real..

    but...

    he was never here.. here beside me..

    when we first met, 3 years ago...
    i thought it was a game... since we met through a game..
    it was a cool start...
    we became friends for a week..
    then lovers the next week..
    we talked and chat and played online..
    and never mind the time...
    and yes, he does made me smile...
    and that was all the time..

    I was then studying...
    while he is graduating..
    you asked if we dated...
    and i said NO, we havent...
    have you seen each other yet?
    again, No we havent...

    ..that went from months...to year..
    Even I, thought I wouldnt shed a single tear..
    ..the feeling grows from a play to a "miss-him-all-day"..
    and then one day...
    he told me, he's gonna ride a plane...
    and i said go...
    coz i know..
    that distance wont matter...
    since we still are..a long time ago..
    ..or thats just what i thought...

    Pains, tears, cuts and scratches...
    my hearts starts to burn and turn into ashes..
    It hurts...
    the time, the chances, the moments..
    they seem to be lost...
    maybe not lost... but buried...