• Life never made any sence to me. Complacated. Hard. Depressing. My mind always felt jumbled and wrong. I felt alone. Scared. Unworthy. I was always running. Never standing still. To stand still is to understand, or care enough to stay. Scared. That's what I am. Scared to care. Scared to know. Scared to love. To be loved. Experience ages the mind. Experience tells me what I already know;
    If I stay I get hurt. I hurt others. If I love, I hurt. If others love me, so do they. Running, running. Never standing still. Never loved. Never wished to be. To love is to know, is to be. I've never known anyone well. I'm afraid. Sometimes, I think they are too. To know is to understand; Something no one ever does. To be is to know what, who you are, to understand yourself, and yourself alone. For me. Impossible. My life is like a shadow. dark and gloomy. Always looming under somthing larger then it self. Eventully, it too will dissiper when no longer needed. Wanted. unwanted. That's what I am. Noblody knows me... Or wants to. To know me is to understand me. Again, impossible. I'm unreachable. unstable. Forgotten.