• this is eating me alive
    watching them be happy
    seeing them thrive while I shrivel
    I feel as if im stuck in the middle, my life is just so little
    how am I going to get out,
    nobody knows what this is about
    all I can do is sit an fiddle
    I need a shovel to dig myself out
    this thing I want to just shout in their faces
    im not happy
    I’m not who you think I am
    outside I look like family
    inside its getting deadly
    feeling melodies screaming hate
    fate drags you along life like a viscous dog
    what’s trapped inside I cant let out
    they sit and laugh in my face
    so many chances I got that I let go,
    now all that’s left is to go with the flow
    mowing down all the people in my way
    now day after day the time gets closer and closer
    I feel like there’s nothing I can do to stop it but I have everything to end it
    why do I keep saying this
    nobody listens to the words that beat through my soul
    the sound of my own sobs lull me to sleep
    slowly they seep out
    I wish these words could speak
    so they could explain their true meaning to thoughs who don’t see me
    fleeting chances to become who I want to be
    every time they seem to leave
    they deceive me every single time
    at my chance to be a leader I am forced to the back of the line
    fears over whelm me and my tearful words,
    the end is soon this song will end the words will end.....now.