• All my life I'm acting and laughing
    But crying inside from the pain
    I just can't deal with all of this hurt
    Blood won't wash away in the rain

    All my days I'm smiling and trying
    To keep all my secrets oppresssed
    The poeple who know me know to believe
    That I'm true when my alibi's pressed

    I say that I fell; I say that I'm clumsy
    I say I cannot save myself
    From all of the dangers I put myself into
    That's all; that explains all the welts

    All my friends, they look at me sideways
    But take me at my certain word
    What they don't know is with all of the pain
    Comes a feeling of flying, a bird

    I'm a bird, wheeling and soaring
    The pain opens new avenues
    I breathe again, no longer lifeless
    But living and bleeding anew

    The freedom it brings is forgiving
    The strength that it brings is absurd
    But I know that this sin brings abandon
    I fly through my mind like a bird

    Someday I know I'll have to end this
    The freedom, the strength, and the flight
    No matter the breathing so freely
    Exhilaration grippipng the night

    They can't know the truth or the process
    The words that may or mayn't come true
    All they need to know is sin, chosen
    To strengthen the straitjacket's cue

    The lifeblood has changed my corruption
    I know I have problems, but how
    Does a girl fix a problam she's chosen
    To strengthen what God won't allow?