• Butterfly Effect

    Remember when…
    We were those kids in the street,
    Chasing butterflies, memories and dreams?
    Our Imaginations running wild, free as can be
    Two feet traipsing never-endingly?

    Remember when…
    We stayed up? Those late nights are gone.
    The hugs we shared, your presence – strong.
    Our whispers hang, lingering here
    My head is clouded, giggling with fear.

    Remember when…
    We’d cry together? Share our secrets?
    The, ‘It’s Now or Never?’
    Jump right in, headfirst, good friends…
    Promising to be there, until the end?

    Now think about the tears we’ve shed.
    The secrets that were spilt,
    Our wounds that have bled…
    The peanut butter sandwiches,
    The milk and the bread
    Our cravings and longings, ripped to shreds.

    Remember the childish promise you gave?
    It’s now weltered and dead…
    Our hands have been broken, no pinkie to promise
    The scars are visible, friendship demolished.

    Don’t forget the “I Love You’s” and “Forever’s”
    The innocent kisses, so sweet and feathered
    Misplacing our hugs, for a hand to shake
    No more whispers to share, just rumors and fake—
    Smiles that are given, to you, from me
    Never a sorry again! This hurt, it bleeds…

    In this day, foregoing night,
    I haven’t a care in the world
    How can I handle this slight?
    You forgot our promise, and put me through hell
    This is my moment, my rage I’ll tell.

    First and foremost, I’ve no one to trust
    Deception was used, this was all a bust
    A seed was planted, inside my mind
    I fought to see, but now I realize…

    The wings have broken, the butterfly’s defeat
    The effect of one wrongdoing and the stomps fill the street
    The songs, now screech, and yell at us freaks
    Fluttering around, bombarding me.
    A comfort so small, I misjudge the call
    Thinking solitude is the pain for societies gall.

    I burn so deeply, the flames go on
    Tomorrow, I’ll sleep, but today I’ll warn – you,
    That my innocence is still intact
    My crayons have melted, and my shields are back
    But nothing to fear, you were never real
    Just as fake as they come – a starving man’s meal

    I’m the idiot that bought the tale of friends
    Now I’ll think carefully of a new way to begin…
    Silently calculating the time I’ve spent
    Wasting on you, to build upon sand.

    Our shovel and pail, it bade our farewell
    The waves crashed into the shore, the pain it nulled;
    You walked away, while I sit and stared
    As our future dissipated and our foundation failed.
    So, I’ll let you know now
    This is the last time I’ll sit and behave
    I will live, to die another day.

    A part of me believes,
    When we were young and carefree
    You still walked away
    Because you couldn’t handle this disease
    That infected us, from the very start
    A rift in the breeze collapses the mark.

    Our goal, you said, was to fight for what we believed
    I smiled and nodded, childlike and naïve.
    The struggled tolled and weighted on me
    Now these final words I’ll part you with,
    “I’m something you will never be.”