• Innocence is a great thing, its like a giant protective wall for your feelings that you cling to till it eventually breaks. Then the outside collapses in and finally reaches you. Innocence was probably the only thing that kept you sane over the years. Innocence was the only thing that kept you from realizing your mother and all of her boyfriends were drug addicts and that you were constantly subjected to things that were unfair for some one of your age. Innocence protected you from the cold dark truth. Like when one of your best friends was killed. All you knew was that he was dead, it wasn't till years later that you found out he was murdered by his own sister over the money in his wallet or that his sister was planning on shooting his wife and daughter but he protected them. Innocence protected you from realizing that when your mom would get into a fight with one of her boyfriends just how much danger you were actually in. Innocence kept you from realizing your sister was forced into the roll of being your mother, always cooking for you and doing your laundry because she loved you and knew that if she didn't you would go hungry or walk around in dirty clothes for weeks on end. Innocence let you believe the death of the cat you loved more than anything in the world the one thing you could always go to when you were sad or feeling down was an accident. When you later found out that he was purposefully run over by one of your moms angry exes. Remember how you cried and cried and no one could make you feel better? Innocence was a great thing… up until it wasn't.

    The one time you wish you weren't as innocent was when innocence stopped you from realizing that man the one you always hung out with and was one of your closest friends. Innocence kept you from realizing he had a mental disability and that the reason he acted like a kid was because he was unable to act like an adult. It kept you from seeing that you were one of the only people that he could actually talk to on a personal level. One of the only people he would let into his world. Innocence kept you from realizing you should have been proud to call him a friend and that you should never forget the one happy memory you have from that time.