• You told me it was all my fault
    Said I had no right to cry
    Sometimes I just couldn’t help myself
    You often threatened to end my life
    Sometimes, I wished you would
    I would egg you on
    Try to drive you to actually do it
    Sometimes it seemed my only escape
    You told me I was the smartest girl you knew
    Later you said I was the dumbest
    You would say I was so pretty
    Then say I was so fat
    I never knew what to believe
    Whenever somebody was around
    You were so friendly, so nice
    But I knew, as soon as they left
    That whole act would end
    Because of you,
    I can’t believe anyone who says they love me
    Because of you
    I can’t believe anyone who says I matter
    If I couldn’t believe it from my own mother
    How can I believe it from anyone else?