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-Luff-
I haven't written a mini diary ANYWHERE for a while.
I haven't been updating Ri-Desu on bebo...
It's the holidays and I felt happy for some time...
But currently, I'm sad.
School? Hmm... I think I'm doing average. You know, I've realised everytime I'm feeling depressed, I have a habit of inserting many '...'s
So I'll just try not to. -shifty eyes- then people won't know I'm depressed. Shhhhh!
Home? It's like usual. Not as many arguments cuz I try to avoid them. I don't talk much to my family. My sister comes back like, once a week for one day then poofs back to work. Poor her. Still so demanding of me D;
My mum and dad are just... usual. Mum keeps thinking my dad is having an affair or something. And she thinks I've been having sex. She's PARANOID. Like me. She thinks crabs don't walk sideways. Oh well.
Love? I love. I really do. I'm not as edgy about it as before. But I suppose... ah, forget it. Been thinking lately. Of many things. Like her. Like him. Like many many things. I just lie there and think about love and other various emotions like hate and jealousy and stuff. Also. I don't think Anthony likes me. Possibly he hates me. Or something.
Friends? Rina... I love her muchly. I can't possibly imagine a world without her. Well, I can, but it's HORRIBLE! D; My world would be all miserable and sad. Well, it already is but... She means a LOT to me!
Ri-ne... I don't know. I feel like she doesn't like me... I feel that she has something against me[?] or something. Our friendship is... somewhat drifting apart? Sure, we have our high and happy moments but... you know, me being me I imagine things.
Others: Everyone has their own friends and are too occupied to bother with me.
I'm currently having a 'I FEEL SO ALONE AND DEPRESSED AND NOBODY CARES' moment.
Sometimes I feel like falling asleep and not wake up. But when I think about it some more, I'll miss people. I'll miss Carmen and her jokes and smiles, her singing, her everything! I'll miss her SMELL! I'll miss Renee's happy smile and bounces, I'll miss Steph and her spasms. I'll miss Elaine and her flailing arms! I'll miss all those little things in the world that make my life worth living...
-starts crying-
I'm sorry, I can't take these emotions anymore!
-crys for a while-
I'm fine now...
I think...
Oh well.
Bye!
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