It is the next day. I suppose that it's not much...
I don't even know what I'm talking about.
Well. Anyways, last night after being all weird,
I sent an sms to her, saying if she wants to and could call me, do so.
If not, well, she wouldn't.
So, I just lay there on the floor next to the phones thinking:
'Will she call me?'
I knew she wouldn't. Why? Instinct. And other various factors.
But I tried to stay awake longer.
'What if she DID call me?'
I knew it was highly unlikely...
So I lay there, curling up next to my hippo thinking
'Why do I even have this hope? Why do I even bother?'
So I ended up listening to music till 1am something...
-shrug-
I don't know.
I just felt like saying that.
So I went online about half an hour ago and checked my usual stuff
Checked bebo, stalked her a bit. Commented on how many 'shizz' there are...
Went on gaia, posted stuff, stalked her some more... and she still hasn't read what I posted yesterday. Not that I care that much if she reads it or not.
How do I know? Her last login time and date.
She hardly goes on gaia I think.
Meh.
I'm in turmoil again.
Can't think.
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Edit: It is the afternoon, and I'm on gaia.
Even Armageddon Reaper noticed I was sad...
Am I really that pathetic?
I read my previous entries and they sounded all so pathetic.
But at the time of writing, I was in turmoil and seemed logical.
-sigh-
Friendships are... hard.
People have noted that I'm skinnier and looking pale and slightly sickly ever since I started high school. I used to be around 51kg around beginning year 7 but now I'm like, 48... I don't dare tell my family or they'll worry... or something .__.
Let's just say I worry too much and I don't sleep and eat properly...
At this rate, I'm going to DIE!
Once upon a time, I didn't care if I died.
But now I do.
Why? I'll miss people.
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