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I realized a few weeks ago that I'm finally (and wonderfully) completely over this guy I had totally fallen for. And so today I was going through all the txts in my inbox on my phone, there were almost 2000, locking those I wanted to keep, and unlocking all the txts I had locked that were from him. There were almost 2000 because I had been meaning to go through all of them to make sure all the fwd's I wanted to keep had been locked as well as notes to myself that I still needed. Of course, I ended up reading most of the txts I had locked that were from him, remembering the conversations that had gone along with them. Looking back, I realized that I was really stupid. Especially after what happened with my ex, I should have realized that all the sweet things he said were just stuff he was saying in the moment, he didn't actually mean any of it. Of course he did say like a bazillion more sweet things than my ex had, but still its the same situation.
I know, I'm probably throughly confusing anyone whose reading this that doesn't know me and about the whole thing with Laine. For those of you reading about my life randomly, I fell for this guy, but we never ended up going out. Oh, and I fell pretty hard. It took me a little over 2 months to get over him. Not that I didn't want to be over him. I did, very, VERY badly, but just couldn't seem to get to that point. Which was really annoying let me tell ya.
Anyways, back on track. Looking back, I was a dumbass giddy school girl with no idea what the hell I was doing. I still don't come to think of it. Though now, I have a much better idea, though its really only a vague idea. Probably due to having never gotten anywhere with my ex, and then the whole thing with Laine not working out being the whole of my love life, minus a few crushes here and there that never lasted long or went anywhere at all.

So basically, I'm still about as innocent as you can get when you're a theater kid. I still don't know like anything, and I've never been kissed. And yeah. Ok, stopping the rambling now...