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Angels
Current mood:In Pain
Category: Life

Is see it as if I am a stranger to all those who occupy my worlds blessings. I am nothing but a vision or a mirage to none and to all. I hold to close to my heart the passion of anothers embrase. I have endured social descrimination for you, Mental stress, physical pains. Horrific attacks upon my own heart and it is all in your name that I continue to bless or at least try to bless myself with the thought of you. To have you and to be with you no expence would be over looked for you. I would give a fortune to create a poetic love with you. But its hard to say and realize that with my constant attempts I know how my story will end, and its hard to admit. In my eyes are the future in my hearts is your past and mine, on my face is a map of the entirety of the world and all its splender. In the beauty of this blue planets power is nothing more than the excess pain and remeberence of those before you. In my mind on a mountian I stay and hold ground to not pride, not happiness, not joy, but pain and sins comitted by my heart and the hearts of my lovers.

Through the tears I can look and see from the eyes that I drained the points made and the love crushed. I have held nothing but love for everything and anything that may hold a distain profound ability to love me back. i have crossed hell, and smighted heaven. I have blessed love and cursed pain. I see nothing but fallen angels all around me, and in the mirror, I am one not to be in a state of complete praise, but those who hold note to my heart and to my love are viewed no more and no less than demons. I put others before myself, big deal. But I have compassion that is equal and par to that, I have devotion that is comparred to that and on par as well, I have love that isnt even classified under no suspect but above that of all others. My heart is as strong as it is kind and loving. From a council of one i shall decide the judgement over those who have hurt me in such a way. I have shown you how loving I can be, Allow me to show you how smart I have become with 18 years of studying love. Not only will i not take any physical approach, but any familiar approach will be unproven in this attack with love and a furious pelt, and burrage of self-lessness. But in this councils decision I shall decide of the innocent to be loved by me no matter what.

Im in deep with my inteligence and have come to the decesion and understanding that I would give up my forever just to be with you. Because I know no matter how far or away I am I know you can feel me some where, with the one that I love she has been the closest that ill ever be to heaven and she knows it. And its not that i dont want to be around you, or that Im mad at you. I dont avoid you all the time, its just that I dont want the world to see me. because unfortunetly the world wouldnt understand me, in the case that I have reached such a point in my life of love and caring and true passion that the world isnt ready for me and neither are you for some reason. Until you realize that everything or anything isnt written in stone and that everything is made to be broken, like my heart. And when your world comes crashing down around you. Know that I will and am there to help pick up the pieces. So you can know who I truly am...... Im an Angel.