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Thirteen Reasons Why
[color=darkred]Thirteen Reasons Why
... With the realization that no one knew the truth about my life, my thoughts about the world were shaken.

Like driving along a bumpy road and losing control of the steering wheel, tossing you -just a tad- off the road. The wheels kick up some dirt, but you're able to pull it back. Yet no matter how tightly you grip the wheel, no matter how hard you try to drive straight, something keeps jerking you to the side. You have so little control over anything anymore. And at some point, the struggle becomes too much -too tiring- and you consider letting go. Allowing tragedy. . . or whatever. . . to happen.

... This time, for the first time, I saw the possibilities in giving up. I even found hope in it.

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commentCommented on: Wed Sep 02, 2009 @ 06:31am
And that is what people call the easy way out...

I'm not trying to sound all knowing or anything...but I was there four years ago and have been back one or twice since then. I just want m ylife to end. I start thinking about ways to make it look like an accident and when I finally get the courage to actually do soemthing, I'm reminded of all the people I will hurt. The people I will destroy. Then, for sake of other's, I turn away and some point along that road I realize, I didn't turn away for them, I turned away for me. Because I look back at all the times I've thought or considered letting go and say, "Wow. Look how far I've come and look where I'm headed."

Many get to that point, but what makes you stronger, is turning away from those ideas and looking back and saying, "I've come a long way."

commentCommented on: Mon Sep 28, 2009 @ 06:18am
Well congrats for you...

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